God gave me the Rain

Society really has screwed us all up, has it not? People who once thought they were beautiful are being shot down by girls in size zero pants. The brunettes are being ditched in favor of the blondes, and girls with flaws are being traded in for the seemingly flawless girls.

All over the country, the world, teenagers are cutting, starving, and killing themselves all because of two things:

1. Lack of love.

2. Lack of "perfection".

Today, I wasn't feeling good about myself at all. Even though it was my day, (rainy, gray, and dark) I couldn't smile. I felt tired, no good, ugly, depressed. I just wanted to crawl in a hole and pass out for three months.

Instead, I haphazardly packed some boxes in my room -which I was supposed to clean- and ended up making a BIGGER mess. (If that's possible...) I quit at about two, and sat around doing random nothingness until four.

It wasn't raining hard when I went outside. In fact, it was only sprinkling. After wandering aimlessly about my dry garage, I took off my sweatshirt and shoes and stepped out into the rain. I walked in the gutter leading to the drains and danced around in the puddles.

Eventually, it started raining harder. I went and stood under a tree in my front yard and then shook it's branches so that the leaves dumped their water on my head. My first thought was Holy Mother of BARNEY that is COLD. But I continued to do it.

I ran through my yard and splashed whatever water I could find over my head. By the time I went inside, I had soaked clothes, wet hair covered in leaves, petals and a stick, and a nearly make-up less face.

I stared at myself in the mirror for a good five minutes, looking at myself. My hair was hanging down to my shoulders, waterlogged. I had mascara stains on the top of my cheeks and my eyeliner was completely smudged off. My eyeshadow was goopy and dripping down the corner of my eye.

Surprisingly, I felt beautiful. Even at my worst, I felt the prettiest I had in a long time.

God gave me the rain to teach me this lesson:

We don't have to give into society. We should be ourselves to the core, no matter what's "in" or what's "out". IT DOESN'T MATTER. We are absolutely and 100% beautiful people, and we need to let it show.

Don't doubt yourself anymore. Your talents, your fears, your looks, your insecurities, your likes and interests, your dislikes. None of that.

This world is only graced with one you. One absolutely beautiful, amazing, talented, smart, you. Don't throw it away. You make the difference. You save people's lives. You change the world.

No matter what STUPID society says, you're FREAKING PERFECT to me.

Don't forget that.

PeAcE,

M